Are You Kidding Me?????

8/29/2005 09:41:00 AM 0 Comments »
My younger sister is living in a rehab facility. I guess I never went into it before because, well I just didn't. About two years ago, after years of being an addict and getting into varying degrees of trouble, she was arrested and sentenced to a little over a year in jail. She only served 9 months, which was enough. She came out of jail sober. It was the first time I saw my "real" sister in years. She was caring, loving, supportive, and a great aunt and sister. I spent a lot of time with her, and we graduated from college together this last May. She was also a bridesmaid at my wedding in June. If you would have told me two years ago that these things would happen, I would have called you a liar. We used to drive over to my parents' house, and if her car was there, we would leave. I didn't want her around my kids. Now, she babysits, we go to the zoo together, she buys the boys gifts, we take her with us to the movies, and she went with us to Las Vegas! Well, just before Graduation, her probation officer called and said that it was a condition of her sentence that she go into a rehab facility. I cried with her! What if she started using again, being around all those losers? Why were they making her go? Didn't they know that she was doing fine? We all wrote letters, but it didn't matter, they said she had to go. So, a bed opened up in a short term facility two weeks ago, and she's been there ever since. When she went in, she was resolute that she wasn't going to befriend any of those losers, and that she knew she was better than them. She called me every day. A lot. Then, last week, she made a friend. "Oh my God, *****, what are you doing?" Just do what you have to do, don't make friends there! Then a couple of days ago, she tells me she's going out with a new "friend". She stops calling. OMG, she's DATING a guy in there? She can get kicked out and sent back to jail!!!!! WTF???? And this morning, she brings him to NHs business. I guess he is pretty old and has "I've been doing drugs for ages and I've been out in the sun and burned many times" skin. After he left, our co-worker commented that he seemed like an ass hole. AHHHHHH! How embarassing! I called her, and she was on her way to my parents' house with this guy!!!! OMG! For one thing, my mom worked overnight and she's sleeping. For another thing, don't bring him to our parents' home!!!! There have been past boyfriends that have stalked the house after the inevitable break-up! So, I told her that I can't believe she took him to the business, and I can't believe she's taking him to our parents' house and she said....get ready for it...."I'm using good judgement, don't worry." Are you kidding me??? Good judgement???? Where, When???? So, I don't know what to do. Write her off again? I don't want to, I love her. I love having my sister back. I am so upset. And no, I am not going to support her decision to date this guy. When people you love do stupid things, you don't pretend that its okay so as not to rock the boat. ARGH!!! WTF?????

today...

8/22/2005 07:08:00 PM 4 Comments »
I was getting revved up to run my errands and be available to my NHs business when his cousin called and wanted me to watch his youngest daughter, who is 3. I said yes, but I was really nervous because she is a little spoiled and has serious separation issues. He dropped her off, and she was so much fun! We walked around the campus and she was so entertaining! My little guy and CD(cousin's daughter) were running around together and when they thought something was funny, they would look at each other and laugh while covering their mouths. OMG, they were so cute! It was such a different experience to be around a little girl, she was so cute and dainty! I want one!!!!! Maybe I can just borrow her from time to time....
Peace Out,
Mom

yeah! date night!

8/21/2005 11:04:00 AM 1 Comment »
Yeah! We went out! We went to dinner, and out for a car ride and coffee. Its nice to just be alone. We didn't talk about the kids much, we mostly talked about what we want to do with our life together and what business opportunities are open to us. We both want to get away and be on our own. (Not away from each other, away from business partners, managers, etc...) My NH is so talented and I can't wait until his business takes off. I can't wait until we get away from his loser business partner! Anyway, life is good. The boys are playing outside, the house is quiet, and I slept in today. YEAH! College starts again tomorrow, I am taking a couple online classes so I can keep trucking along! One day, I will finish all of it!
Peace Out,
Mom

date night....

8/20/2005 12:39:00 PM 0 Comments »
I asked my mom to babysit. She said she would if I would pick her up at work yesterday. So, I did. It turned into a huge ordeal, there was traffic, I had all three kids with me, she wanted to buy them milkshakes, I had to go to the coffee company to get smoothie mixes for NH's business, etc... So it ended up taking three hours! So she calls me today and says that she forgot that she promised her friend that she and my dad would go over for dinner. She says she won't be home until 7, which really means 8. Okay, fine, we'll just have a late night out. Well, NH says he has to work tomorrow and its too late to go out. Are we really that old? Is HE really that old? I want time alone with my husband, outside of this house!!!!! Dammit!
Peace Out,
Mom

stuff

8/19/2005 01:08:00 PM 3 Comments »
My little guy is busy. He is really starting to talk and I love it! He is so damn cute. We also got him his first big boy bed, which is just a little toddler bed, but he moves around a lot while he sleeps. Before, in the crib, he couldn't roll out because he was encased in a cage, but now, he rolls right out. We woke up this morning with him lying between us in our bed. No idea how he got there! I just spent months getting him out of our bed! There is no way I want this to continue. Would locking him in his room be heartless and cruel?;) Anyhoo, life seems to not be slowing down. It seems like I always have something to do, and when I don't, I am exhausted and I just want to sit down. My big boys are making me crazy. The oldest has a sharp wit and a sarcastic attitude that makes me want to choke him. I don't, of course, but the urge is there. I swear, I want to apoligize to my mom for all the times I yelled, "All right, GEEZ!!!" at her. Of course, it is accompanied by an eye roll. My middle son moves as slow as molasses. Really. He is so smart, but he is a little space cadet! I love his imagination, but it really shouldn't take three hours to do homework. Thank God my mom is taking the kiddos tomorrow night so that NH and I can go somewhere and look at each other for a while. I hope we don't spend the whole time talking about kids and work.
Peace Out,
Mom

Stepping Out of the Box...

8/06/2005 10:02:00 AM 6 Comments »
Okay, I have decided that I am going to start a wedding planning business. I loved planning my wedding, and I think I did a damn fine job! So, because of my anal, attention to detail organizational skills, I think this is a perfect job for me. AND, while working at the sweat shop, I am secretely going to solicit business. You know, cuz all those brides coming in need HELP! So, here I am! I'm going to start out not charging much, until I get a good portfolio going, and then just keep going from there! Right now, I'm working on a business name, and then I'm going to try and register the business name this week. And then business cards and a webpage. OOOH, I need to find someone to do the webpage!!!! Okay, I'm getting even more excited!
Peace Out,
Mom

Joining the Liars Club...

8/05/2005 10:00:00 AM 2 Comments »
Okay, after reading one of my favorite blogs(Click on the link to take you there), I have decided to create my own list of "Guess the lie" So, I will list five facts about myself, and one will be a total lie...guess which one!
1. I have seen Wizard of Oz over 150 times. I can sing every song and talk along with the characters the entire length of the movie. I'm great fun when it comes on TV and there is a room full of people.
2. I met George Lucas, Whoopie Goldberg, Ted Danson, Woody Harrelson, John Ritter, Sally Field, and many more. I also hyperventelated because I am very easily star-struck.
3. For a week when I was lashing out at my parents and hanging out with the "wrong crowd", I slept in vacant houses on the floor.
4. I have a "secret stash" of money hidden away just in case things don't go well with NH.
5. While we were in high school, my best friend and I ran into Mario Lopez in Tijuana, Mexico in a club. He was wearing full make-up, and it was obvious!

Okay friends, lets see if you can guess the lie! I'm really curious to find out what ya'll think!!!!
Peace Out,
Mom