Not-So-Normal Mom

Okay, I'm not going to ruin the book, but it is oh so sad. I was crying while reading the last few chapters. My oldest son was bringing me tissues and shaking his head at me. (He obviously hasn't read the book, or he would understand) We were in NH's cousin's wedding over the weekend...pictures will follow as soon as I get them back. Oh, I got MY wedding album back, and they are GORGEOUS!!!! I am so happy with the way they turned out!!! We are darling!
I started a new job at After Hours Tux Shop on Monday. It is brainless, mind-numbing labor, but I like to shop, so I need some spending money! So far, three things have come to my attention that make me want to quit:
1. I have to sew. I hate sewing. If I enjoyed it, I would sew our own clothes. I don't like to prick my finger, I don't like standing for 20 minutes while I fix a hem, I just don't like it!!!
2. I have to iron. Now, those of you that know me know that about ten years ago during the summer, I worked at a dry cleaner. I like to call it the "sweat shop". I spent the entire day ironing men's dress shirts. Now, when you hit the armpit on said shirts, all the sweat of a thousand stinks come out of the steam offending your nostrils. There was no air conditioning, it was in the summer in east county, and I had to stand up for hours over an ironing board. Ever since I quit that job, I haven't ironed. Seriously. I either buy clothes that don't need to be ironed, have someone else iron it, or wear it wrinkly. I hate ironing.
3. I can't wear open toed shoes. I get pretty little pedicures for a reason! Plus, its summer and I have so many pairs of cute sandles!!!!
Anyway, its just something to keep me busy. Like I'm not busy enough. My NH is now home, so its time for me to fulfill my wifely duties.
Peace Out,
Mom

I am taking a break from reading to let everyone know that I am scared to finish this book. I have heard that someone dies and it is so very sad! I'm actually reading this one much slower than I read any other. I'm afraid. Oh, it's so silly!
I have in-laws coming in starting tonight. I am not as happy as I ought to be. I am in a wedding on Saturday. Once again, my NH and I will be walking down the aisle together, this time as attendants. I'll post pics.
The big boys are back in school today, and I couldn't be happier! They both got great teachers, and I am tickled pink!!!!!!!
One of my best friends is mad at me because I stated the obvious to him and he got his feathers all ruffled up. I'm giving him a few days to calm down before I call. Believe me, I am not sorry. But, I will call him. He'll get over it.
Peace Out,
Mom

My NH and I one month before the wedding!!!

I have a problem. I was watching the first Harry Potter movie the other day and I noticed during the Quidditch match that the spectators were all wearing super cool scarves. They were a beautiful red and gold and I thought they looked so pretty. Yeah, well, I'm crocheting some. Yeah, some. I think I'll make them for the whole family. Maybe some friends, too. I already started, and boy is it nice. Maybe we'll all wear them on opening day of the movie this winter. Yeah, I know, mock me. Go ahead. I'm kind of mocking myself. I hope this phase passes.....
Peace Out,
Mom

I have decided that it is time for men to change their names when they get married. I don't know how it is in other places around the U.S., but here in beautiful San Diego, it takes FOREVER to be seen at the Social Security Office and the DMV. There is a large number of people who immigrate to our country and reside in southern California. I think they were all at the Social Security office this morning. I thought to myself "Self, I have an appointment at the DMV at 9:45, surely if I get to the SS office at 8:45, I will make that appt." NOT!!!! I was there until 11:15! Good God!!! So, I had to reschedule my appt at the DMV. ARGH! Just a simple name change. Right. So, I have started to speak in a strange pirate language to alleviate my stress and frustration. ARGH!
Peace Out,
Mom

Harry Potter!!!! Seven Days!!! I am so excited! I just read book 5 all over again and I am sort of sad and anxious. I can't wait for the next one. Maybe to ease my withdrawal, I will read the fourth one again.
Anyhoo....
Just got back from the pool with the kids. It was pretty fun! Last year, our little Bubba wasn't at all afraid of swimming, but now he's all scared. So, I guess we're going to have to visit the pool more often so that he's not scared anymore. Cool!!!! I'm game. The other two are doing pretty good. Randy is like a fish, Riley would be doing well if he wasn't so insecure. He really is amazing, if he would just realize it, he would be unstoppable!!!!
Life is getting back to normal.
Peace Out,
Mom

Me with my hot Vegas look

our family with Pete Rose!!

Bubba in hotel

We're not going to move. I don't really know how to feel about this. I'm happy, in a way, because I love San Diego. It is GORGEOUS here, and there is so much to do and it is a perfectly diverse environment to raise a family, but I wanted a house, dammit! I wanted a dog and another baby, maybe! I can cope, really. Life is good here. The boys go back to school in less than two weeks, so its time for me to get in back-to-school mode. You know, school clothes buying, new shoes, haircuts! And since we're not moving, I need to get them into some activities to keep them busy.
Okay, random thoughts....
1. I love Sesame Street. I was raised on it, my kids are being raised on it, my little Bubba loves it!!! But WTF! What's this I hear about them changing Cookie Monster?????? Into carrot monster or something??? If your kids are fat, I promise, its not because cookie monster likes to eat cookies!!! Stupid!
2. Tom Cruise. I think he has a valid point with the over medicated society thing. BUT...he came off as a nut job, rude, inerrupting, Scientology freak. He sounded extremely mean spirited, and that is NOT COOL!
3. Cussing kids. There is nothing worse than hearing an eleven or twelve year old cute, babyfaced kid, say mother *!$ker! I swear, I want to take them aside, spank them, and put soap in their mouths! (well, someone should!)
4. Gay rights. I am obviously not gay. BUT, I do have a lot of opinions on the subject. One of my very best friends is gay and I love him and his boyfriend. I think they should be allowed to get married and share the same joy that we do. This is America, after all. What is George afraid of? By the way, Rock on Spain for making it legal, and Rock on to Canada, too. It will be legal there by the end of July!
Okay, I am done ranting for now. I feel a little better.
By the way, Vegas was pretty fun! It was damn hot(108), even at night(90)! We had a good time, though! I'll post pics!
Peace out,
Mom

So, my kids are on vacation I have graduated from college, and I am married. What am I going to do now????? We are still discussing moving from beautiful San Diego to Dallas, Texas. A few months ago, we were totally going. Then all of a sudden, a couple of weeks ago, my new husband jumped onto the fence about it. What??? So, am I now depending on my NH to make all the decisions for me? Do I want to move? I don't even know! Part of me wants my oldest to finish out his sixth grade year at this school he's gone to his whole life, but then my middle son would be missing out, too. That's really a no-win situation. Part of me wants to stay here and be with my friends. Part of me wants to go there and have a huge house. (Because there, you can get a HUGE house for what a tiny, one bedroom shack costs here.) The same houses that cost 200k there, cost 900k here. DAMN! Anyway, I would like a dog and a yard instead of apartment dwelling. I think maybe I would like to have another baby. I would like my NH to dump his business partner(he is absolutely AWFUL!!!) If we stay here, I would like to start a business, and continue with school. I guess I could be happy either way. I just would like to feel secure. Not all up in the air waiting for a decision to be made, you know?
So, what am I doing....I am writing thank you notes, making dr appointments, and packing for Vegas. That's right baby, we are going on our familymoon. Similiar to a honeymoon, but with the whole family. It will be a blast! We are leaving tomorrow night and coming back Sun/Mon. Woo Hoo!!!!
Today is my middle son's birthday. We are going to Fuddruckers for dinner. Next week, we are having kids over for "going to the movies birthday party". We are totally going to see "Shark Boy and Lava Girl". That's right, we're doing the party in 3-D. Cool!!! My little baby "bubba hoozie" is two!!! He turned two last friday! We also went to Fuddruckers for his birthday!!!! I guess we like it there! So, thats it for my update. Life is good.
Peace out,
Mom

Woo Hoo! The wedding was last Friday and I think it was beautiful! I am so proud of how well my mom and I (and my girls) all pulled together to make it a wonderful event. I think it was a testament to how much we all care for and support each other. It really turned out great. Jason and I were both moved to tears during the ceremony and I can't even begin to tell you what that meant to me. I always knew Jason loved me, but just to be there and really FEEL that love and SEE how much it affected him really touched me. Everyone was really moved by the ceremony. We had a family ceremony, too. We said "vows" to our boys and it just all felt right. Of course, it wasn't perfect, the baby was sick and had a few moments, but we excpected something, so we weren't upset at all. And there was one person, who I will refer to as "Grimace" who made me a touch angry, but I have decided to just let it go....It is actually very sad. She felt the need to try and steal our thunder because she wanted to have a say in it, and I didn't let her. So, she spent the evening trying to take over whatever she could. All it did was make some of my guests angry and make her look desperate. Anyway... I'm happy. She has gone back to the dark side, away from me, and I am living here, happy as a clam!=) I'll post a picture when I get them back!!! I suppose I should have more time to write now that I have graduated and the wedding is over....we'll see!!!!
Peace out,
Mom

Oh......It was soooooooo fun! We went to a dinner show that was set up like a wedding and a reception. The audience sits at reception tables and participates like guests. The show was an Italian wedding complete with Grandma Loni and a Italian mom with a giant ass! All the guys were named Tony and Louie and the girls all had teased hair. It was great! It was all the things you don't want at your wedding. The bridesmaids carried their purses down the aisle (all mismatched, animal print and neon) and one of the groomsmen had a Boston Red Sox emblem on a chain around his neck. The bride tripped going down the aisle, and the ex girlfriend showed up in a 2 inch mini with fishnets. It was great and I was shnookered! We all did the chicken dance, Dancing Queen, and the electric slide. My maid of honor and I got a lap dance(clean) by the groomsmen! It was sooooo funny! Then, we went driving around downtown in a convertible that was decked out for the occasion. After that, we went to my MOH's house for our slumber party! I really did have a great time and I'm so glad that it was just the 5 of us. It was a perfect amount of people, we all fit in the convertible! I haven't talked to the girls from the coffee cart since before the bridal shower and none of them have made an attempt to contact me. It's all good, baby! No love lost. It's kind of like I now know where we all stand with each other! Anyways.....Only two and a half weeks until the wedding!!!!!! Just around the corner! Oh, and I graduate next Friday!!!! Woo Hoo!!!!!!!
Peace Out,
Mom

Okay,so I had my bridal shower on Saturday, and I really had a great time. The women were all fun and they decorated beautifully!!!! But, the bitches from the coffee place(see link) that my fiance owns never showed. I worked there for years and I thought they were my friends. They all RSVPd to my sister, and only one called at the last minute to say she had too much homework. Give me a break. I don't like too many women and this just reinforces my dislike for females. It really hurt me. I don't usually get hurt that easily, but I was really let down. I guess mostly because I really thought I could count on them being there. I know I'm hurt more than pissed because I can't even bring myself to yell at them. I just well up when I think about it. I guess it shouldn't bother me so much. I should be concentrating on the good things and just let it go....Three and a half weeks until the wedding!!!!!

My 20-11th birthday was last friday and my wonderful man gave me an engagement ring! It's soooo pretty! It's just what I wanted!!! We are getting married in one month and I am getting super anxiety-ridden. I am not at all worried about getting married...I am worried that the wedding won't go perfect. I know that is totally stupid because there is no way that it will go off without something being off. I just want it all to come together. I am an over-planner, and I keep worrying that I have forgotten something! AHHHHHHHH! I really do think it will be beautiful, I want everyone to have a good time and feel comfortable. That will be interesting. I have been doing all the planning myself, with the help of my mom and bridal party. Now, on the final stretch, his family has offered to help. Since I asked them months ago for help, to no avail, I am laughing to myself. I don't want their help. Now its like a challenge to prove that I can do it myself, ya know???? I have sooooo much going on in the next month! I am aslo graduating from college on the 27th. Woo Hoo!!!! Everything is going pretty good.......

this is me close up....

I was in an accident last Saturday. A thousand year old woman pulled in front of me and stopped when the light was green and traffic was going fifty. The left turn lanes were full, and I was not in it. I was going straight. She said she performed this STUPID feat because she wanted to turn left. WHATEVER!!!!!!! So, now my van is totalled and I am dealing with insurance companies waiting for her insurance company to realize that there is no way that it was my fault! So, I'm driving around a rental that has no balls and it's not a minivan so the boys are sitting RIGHT BEHIND ME! They can be quite loud and irritating sitting that close to each other. Anyway, it was just my mom and I in the car at the time and we are both alive, thank God. We are both sore and seeking medical attention, I'll let you know how that goes....
So, I am planning my June wedding, and things are going good. My invitations are beautiful, my bestest friend C made them for me and she is so wonderfully talented with that sort of thing!!! All is trucking along wonderfully. I'm still having some issues with the in-laws. No, I think they have issues with me and I am getting my feelings hurt and changing to "protection" mode. The "if-you-don't-like-me then I-don't-like-you" thing. It's interesting how that happens. Thank God they live so far away.
I am also dieting a little. It sucks. I just want to lose a little, not a lot. Just so I feel good about myself again. I would like to be at the point I was before I had our baby.
The boys are back at school. Awesome!!!! It's nice to be able to get things done again. It's nice to feel like the house can be clean again.
Okay, time to play referee again. I need a vacation.....
Peace out,
Mom

Okay, I haven't written in a while. I have a little bit of guilt about this. I don't know if guilt is the right word, but that's the one I'm using. Anyway, I've been busy with a lot of nothing lately. Well, not exactly nothing, but it's been a lot of kid stuff and I'm sure most people would not think that it's very important. We went to the zoo and the wild animal park to keep the kids busy. I love year round school most of the time, but when they're home longer than my spring break was, I get a little annoyed. So, I've been feeling really lazy. I'm used to running around with the little guy, but now, if I try to run errands or something, I hear the older two complaining the whole time. "When are we going home????" "Where are we going NOW???" Like they can't stand to be away from the play station or the computer for an extended period of time. Because God knows, they won't play outside unless there is someone to play WITH. Forget the fact that there are two of them! Anyway, I'd like to take this opportunity to point out that I know my kids are not perfect. Half the time, when my kids get in trouble with some other kids, they were the ringleaders. BUT, the other half the time, it was the other kids idea. Now, I am always willing to admit my child's faults. What I can't stand is these parents who really believe that their child can do no wrong. I especially love the phrase, "Not my Danny...He wouldn't do that! He doesn't even know how to do that!" Because really, our children are a lot smarter than we give them credit for. Not to mention, if you don't talk to your child or eavesdrop every once in a while, you have no idea!!!! I just hope one day parents step up and realize the little people that they are creating. And also know that although they are born pure, the older they get, the more stuff they figure out. They are going to get in trouble, and they are going to be the cause of it. Deal with it.
Peace out,
Mom

You know, I was just sitting around thinking that, at some point, it will be very quiet around here. Right now, it's like in the movies when you see someone sitting quietly and the movie is sped up around them. Only I don't ever sit quietly for very long. Anyway, I realize that I am used to a steady hum of noise around me. Like in a mall or an airport. There is always something going on in my house. Or someone is always crying or yelling about someone hitting them or tripping them. Or someone is always hungry or wants a drink. Not that I'm complaining, I love it here. But I'm wondering if I will ever miss the noise. I've noticed that I bitch about getting away from all of them, but when I'm away for an extended period of time, I start to ache for them. Warped. Sometimes I want to just yell out, like in those old commercials "Take Me Away!!!!!" Like when my middle son forgets his homework for the 12th time this month or my older son says "whatever" and rolls his eyes, or when I have changed 4 poopy diapers in an hour and a half and the baby is screaming because he can't pull his toy out from under the couch. Then, at night, it gets all quiet and I look at them sleeping and I think they look like angels. Too bad they are just resting demons.....
Peace out,
Mom

After writing my intro, I was so busy with life and children that I haven't had any time to follow up, so here goes...
I want to point out that I am a YOUNG mom of three boys. Most people don't even believe that I'm a mom. Sometimes I don't know if this is a compliment or not. Is it because I look young or because I am immature? I hope that I can still connect with my kids in a few years. I hope that they aren't embarrassed by their mom who still THINKS she's cool.
I'm sitting here with my 20 month old son who is playing with a toy drill. He is alternating between trying to drill up my nose and holding it to his head. I hope he doesn't grow up to be a carpenter. He could hurt somebody.
I suppose this blog was supposed to be a sort of catharsis for me. I suppose that I should write about meaningful things. One thing I want to say is that I used to be a caring person. My mom used to say that a bug couldn't fall out of a tree without me crying over it. Then, some crappy stuff happened. I was married to an awful boy that abused me-body and soul. I got my two sons out and ran. I was only 23. So, I built up a wall because I had a lot to do. I had to be strong for my boys and I wasn't EVER going to let anyone hurt us again. So now, I care, but I'm mostly a bitch. I found a wonderful man who knows how to handle me and never raises his voice or his hands to me. We have another son together and we're REALLY happy. I finally found out what love really feels like and how nice it can be. I adore my man and our boys. But yeah, I'm still a sarcastic bitch.
For the most part, I think people suck. I hate stupidity. Maybe it's because it's a flaw you can fix. Go to school, read a book, watch Jeapardy or the Discovery channel, SOMETHING! Just stop being a stupid moron! Stay home until you have learned enough to be released into the public. I've heard a saying that goes something like, "There's no such thing as a stupid question". Let me tell you, I've heard a truckload of stupid questions! Kids are cute when they ask a simple question, but when you are an adult, you should know better!
Okay, that's enough for now, I have life to do.
Peace Out,
Mom